I feel the M.E. Goblin is playing the mood-changing game with me recently. The last three days have seen me burdened by vivid, disturbing dreams and a strong feeling of general anxiety.I say generalised as, try as I might, I can't pinpoint any specific cause for it.
Unfortunately, anxiety makes me short-tempered and 'testy' which is unfair on C and the sproglings. Then I get moody at myself because I'm being moody for no good reason.
I'm finding it more than usually difficult to focus on tasks and when I attempt to relax, I'm contending with 'jiggling foot' syndrome.
It's almost as if I'm anticipating or impatient for 'something' to happen and that all the mundane, everyday stuff is side-lining me from being ready when 'it' comes.
All very inconvenient, I call it.
So, wassup with me?
Went with C and Nats to see Chuckle-Bunny in her school production of The Wriggly Nativity.Fantastic! Crowded & Uncomfortable on the tiny benches but bloody fantastic, nonetheless. She stood there and delivered her lines calmly and clearly and did not 'blench' one bit. Bless her cotton socks. The camels we hilarious, too.
The Mouser is coming down today, so really looking forward to that. I so miss my lad when we're apart. With luck, we'll get him for gaming tomorrow eve.
Had a doc's appointment yesterday which resulted in me being booked in for more blood-taking. Looking at the sheet, it could be a good couple of arms-full this time. On top of that, got new pills to take. I'm so crap at taking pills, but these have the days of the week on the blister packs and I only require one per day, so even I should manage that.
Took the first last night and, oh boy, VERY weird effects. Felt like my skin had been taken off, put in the fridge for a couple of hours and put back on again. Cold but very shudderingly touch-sensitive, (Not in any pleasant way, tho'). That, and a bit of motion sickness, had me in bed by about 8pm. Mercifully, I don't remember my head hitting the pillow and got a lie in (by recent standards) till nearly 5am.
Touch wood, these are just initial wearing-in effects and things should level out in a couple of days.
Update: Second tab today. A bit spaced out, but nowhere near as bad as last night. *phew!
Bloody weird and bloody inconvenient since this makes walking extra 'ouchy' using a keyboard murderously 'achy' and using a guitar downright agonising.
This makes the recording I wanted to get done for Yule a bit of a problem. Here's hoping it buggers off as quickly as it arrived, eh?